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Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Ta da da dum...

Hi Wonderful People,

Today we had to do what I've been trying to avoid doing… Ta da da dum...

We had to schedule 3 days of testing and 3 days of visiting with doctors, therapists and social workers at Presbyterian Hospital. All of these tests are to determine whether or not I quality for a "Bob." Crazy that I have to go through psychological testing!  Even though I'm better (AMEN) my cardiologist still wants me to go through the process and be listed for a Bob.

I'm going to do my best to shift this yukky experience form being a scary one to being, in Hunter's words: "A series of metrics that can only serve us. " But damn those evil voices are loud as a mother%^&$^* today! Anything related to Bob is bothersome to me. Damn Bob!

I do have the decision to not go through with any of it, but of course that's scary too! Ahhh! Scary on the left and scary on the right. I think it makes sense to go through with all the testing (which is not nearly as bothersome to me as interacting with the doctors) and continue on my journey of healing without ever needing a Bob.

My cocktail of meds,  green juices, a healthy diet and exercise seems to be doing the trick!

I realize that  a situation is not really about the situation but about how we choose to see the situation. Someone said this a lot better than I just said this.

So, I'm going to power through and see the situation as one to be grateful for. These tests can be an opportunity for me to have a better understanding of my current health situation and as Hunter says, to have a set of metrics that we can refer to. I'm going to listen to the doctors and rather than cringe, I'm going to pretend that I'm on stage and visualize them all naked he he he he just kidding. But seriously, I'm going to let their words also be metrics and do my best not to take them to heart (literally.)

In music news, I just wrote and released a new song titled "The Meaning of Time." If you'd like to watch/listen, please click here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0yKe1brjrQ

Also, there is now a subscribe area, on the right, in case you'd like to be notified when I post a new blog.

Thank you for being  part of my world!

Wishing you a great day! :-)

xx
Chloe

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

New Song!!!

Recorded a new song today! Yay!!

I was wondering how I was going to be able to record with the oxygen because it's so loud!!! Every time I breathe in, it sounds like a huge gust of wind, and amplified by a mic, it sounds like a tornado is taking over the earth!!!

So my first attempt consisted of taking off the oxygen and pretending that, while doing vocals, I just wouldn't need it. I decided not to check my 02 saturation and just make believe it was OK. I finished a few vocals and thought: "What the hell, let me just check it." It was definitely low so I put it back on :-( Steve Martin is clearly not ready to let me go just yet.

How was I going to do this! Ahhh!! Steve Martin is sooo loud!

I was a bit discouraged for about 6 minutes, when I thought: "Hmmm… what if I leave on the cannula and breathe mostly through my mouth, occasionally taking breaths through my nose. It worked!!!

I took one breath through my nose for every three I took through my mouth and I was able to get a vocal that was clean. It didn't sound like the end of the world was coming! It took longer to record, but it worked! This is the kind of thing I never thought I would be so excited about!

I look forward to sharing the new song with you soon!

Happy Day!!! :-)

 xx
Chloe

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Road Trip!

We just came back from Rhode Island (see driver below) where we were for 4 days visiting Hunter's family and celebrating life!  We decided to take a little celebratory road trip since my most recent echo shows that I'm continuing to improve. AMEN!!!

I'm not a huge shopper but I do like the mall in Providence, RI. So, on Friday, we took a little mall trip. This was my first real shopping moment with Steve Martin. It was really my first "outing" since being in the CCU.  Shopping with Steve M. was quite something.
He definitely doesn't leave my side :-)

The craziness is that I have to get everything done b4 he runs out of 02. I've got a good few hours before he needs to be changed. It all worked itself out!

We're gradually increasing my meds, and are religious about our green juices! I'm feeling better and stronger, which I'm so happy about. Music is starting to creep up and say: "Hey, what about me? Did you forget about me?" This of course is a very hopeful sign :-)

I hope you are having a wonderful day! See you at the next :-)

xx
Chloe